With Myself

I am looking into my own heart. I observe myself and I accept myself. My leaves both guard and cherish me. I am happy to be with myself, looking inward for my own answers. I am the witness of my experience, my feelings, my thoughts. I am strongly rooted, upright, and tranquil.

Never Again

My heart is broken. I cannot bear it. I swear I will never allow myself to be so vulnerable again. No, I will not look at myself. I cannot see that in truth I am strong and beautiful. I do not  realize that I have just taken a vow that may protect me from the risk of loving for the rest of my life.

Yes!

I am wide open to the world. I am giving and receiving with both hands. My power is expansive. It grows.  I know I will use it for the best. I am finally solid. I am balanced. Life: bring on your challenges!

Perhaps Forever

I have dropped whatever is not essential. Reaching toward the light, I am aflame with the desire to be free...

These prints are five of 13 large watercolor paintings which explore the theme of how we express our lives as women. I painted them during the first several years I was living alone after separating from my husband. Meditating on the profound difference between feeling/being “we” and feeling/being “I,” I visualized each woman as a single rose.

I noticed that a rose, especially a garden rose, becomes more complicated, more fascinating and more individual as she matures—just as we do. We usually throw out roses when they get old without noticing their unique beauty, just as we may devalue ourselves when we are no longer dewy buds

As I painted, working through the feelings and ideas evoked by the different images and expressing those feelings in the paintings, I realized that my choice of a single rose had been more profound than I knew. The relationship we have with ourselves is essential. As with any relationship, we can choose to develop this to a greater depth and intensity, or we remain skating on the surface of our own lives.

May each of these rose-women images be quiet ally on your own spiral path of development, reminding you that you are your own best friend, giving courage to keep a straight spine in adversity, or determination to persevere even as the petals inevitably fall.  -- Lisa Wagner

Prints are quite big, 19.5" by 30"--you can see enlargements by clicking the pictures.